Today made me curious I suppose I could say, for the lack of a better word. My brain battled two completely different ideas and it seemed as though it wasn't sure how to feel. Why do we focus so much on the negative? Why do we never embrace the positive and shed a little light onto our day and on the day of those around us. I'm really not sure. I am a stranger to myself, to the world around me. I have been for a while now, and today was no exception.
Today was a good day, it was the resurfacing of my past. Not my past which I wish to forget, but my past where I felt alive. Today was a day where something that we would consider old became new again. It's exciting. I would have thought today would have been a good day, because when I found out about today's news only weeks ago I couldn't have been more ecstatic. What I can't seem to wrap my head around though is why today I felt so dejected.
Today was a bad day, lacking of the good news we all pray for. When I woke this morning, I had no clue my perfect day would be ruined by this cold Canadian climate. The fact I woke up to snow at the end of April really set my emotions on a one way path. It seems strange to me that just the other day I was sitting outside in a skirt and sandals, and then within less than 24 hours I was bundled up in my winter coat, scarf, and mittens. It feels as though I boarded a plane and flew across the country. I miss the sun and I miss the warmth.
I want to live, be happy, and move on, but I need a little push from blue skies and sun kissed surroundings.
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