Sparks

Sometimes I wish that we didn't fight so much, so often about silly little things. I suppose it has become a daily ritual of ours; each day you mess up and I get angry. You don't really mess up that much, you know. I believe this habit of mine, the habit of creating arguments, comes from the love I gave away to criminals. It wasn't really love, I know that now because of you; I just used to tell myself it was because I always secretly wished it could be. You're the only boy I've ever truly loved. The difference between the way I always fought with them and the way I now fight with you is that they really did hurt me. I think I just pretend you do out of habit sometimes because it's what I'm used to; how pathetic. I hate how I carry that with me and hurt you so much.

Sometimes I wonder what our relationship would be like if we didn't fight so much, so often about silly little things. At times I like to think it would be something like the silver screen romances. You know, the ones that are passionate and flawless and always work out for the better? Those ones. I am naive in that sense I guess; silver screen boyfriends cheat you out of time, happiness, and true love. On the other hand, maybe those stupid little fights are the backbone of our relationship and without them we would exist no more. I think that's the case. Perfection is something we humans created, you told me that once. Since I am human, I can therefore create perfection and have decided the definition of perfection for me is you. You're better than a silver screen romance. If I had yet another silver screen boyfriend I could only keep him for a couple of hours; in reality I wouldn't truly have him at all, just his empty shallow eyes. Plus, he'd be scripted. Hello heartbreak central.

I remember the moment I realized I was truly in love with you. I was before that, but because I had never experienced it I wasn't sure. We were in the car, and night fall was among us. We were just pulling into my driveway and my fingers were intertwined in yours. I looked at you and knew; I just knew. The best part about our relationship is that I feel like I fall in love with you again every single day. It's your eyes, and the way you smile. Your sarcastic manner and the way you love me. I could never stop loving you, because you make me want to love you forever.

Shut your eyes honey, I want to kiss you and let the sparks fly.