I haven't done this in a while. I guess there has just been so much going on recently that I haven't been able to find the time, or maybe it's because I just haven't been inspired. I find it hard to believe that my inpiration has been lacking recently, especially because there has been so much drama. I figured once high school was done the drama went along with it, but I guess I was wrong.
After graduating high school, my perspective on life has changed drastically.
For starters, I've lost alot of people from life whom I thought I would continue to call my friend after all was said and done. Then, I found a new group of people to befriend and I was excited. It felt as though I was moving away from my past which I had been trapped within for too long and starting fresh. The odd thing is, I found out this new group of people I was beginning to call my friends turned out to be nothing more than the old ones I was so happy to have moved away from. I'm starting to wonder if I was ever ment to be close with anyone.
In a sense, I am kind of glad I've moved away from the majority of my high school friends. I must admit, recently it has left me feeling kind of like a "loner" for the lack of a better term. I'm not really used to being so alone all of the time. Then again, this has helped me realized that slowly, but surely I am becoming more and more independent with each passing day. I am learning to be less dependent on other people and more dependent on myself, because in the end I'm the one who makes the final decisions.
I hope those kids are having fun, because I've come to realize I don't need them. Even though sometimes it gets me down, I get back up and tell myself that even though it feels like the end, this is really only the beginning and that keeps me positive. For the time being, I will look forward to the future and be thankful for the people I do have in my life. I think this kind of thing helps me to appreciate them more and understand how lucky I really am to have them by my side.
High school might be done, but we've still all got alot of growing up to do.
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I went through the same thing when graduated high school. I know it can get lonely but, you are right. You will truly come to appreciate the poeple that you do have in your life. When I graduated I was more then content with leaving my friends and that life behind. It was a fresh start and I've never been happier.:)
ReplyDeleteIt's good to know that I wasn't the only one who felt like that. I've come to appreciate those people even more since I wrote this almost a year ago, and I've come to find you start to learn quality is more important than quantity - although secretly I think I always knew that. Thank you for taking the time to comment on this, and for taking the time to read the nonsense that I scribble down from my mind. :)
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