My Planet's Last Dance

My trust with the people I most cherish in my life dwindles as the stars in my sky bleed a deeper blue than most, creating a world much darker than one should ever be. Could a past experience cause someone so much unrecognized emotional pain that they begin to mistrust the world in which they live? Sometimes I feel as though this is the case for me. I worry that without even realizing it, I am reliving my past in this very present moment of time. I understand this is a perfect example of when the much too often heard phrase of "forgive and forget" comes into play, acting as the Joker in a game we too often gamble away. Although, I find myself questioning the entire idea behind that phrase, because as humans how do we know when to draw the line? Certainly not all things should be forgotten, for we would have no memories. It appears as though I push the most important people away with the unintentional barriers I put up around myself; for those of you that tear them down, I am undeniably grateful. As I am, I relive my past in my present and leave the future as it is; a whole new solar system awaiting its discovery, for this is my planet's last dance.

I cannot bring myself to forget what you've done, allowing you to take hold of my soul like the leech that you are.